Kingdom Building

Whoa!!! That is the of the coolest things ever. Mmmm. Let the Word be our bread and everlasting water. 

Some questions that I find myself asking God is:

- Seriously, why me? What did I do? Did You abandon me and didn’t give me a memo? Can this be over soon? 

Life doesn’t slow down for your sake, it just keeps going whether you’re ready or not. Most of the time, were not ready for those untimely, unfortunate and in our eyes, undeserving moments but then there are those moments where God surprises you and you stand in awe and suddenly your reminded of why your alive. It’s only by His grace and by His BIGGER purpose as to why I am alive today and I forget that. As one of my sisters in Christ always prays with me, “LORD, thank You for life TODAY because today, thousands of people weren’t as fortunate as we were”. Man, that prayer just constantly reminds me that through my hell and high waters, I am alive for something greater that what I can ever expect. 

I tutor kids one on one and one of the parents were having those “I failed as a mom” day. Of course, I wouldn’t know, I’m not a mom but she poured out her heart and I listened. I listened just as God would listen to anyone and I felt the enemy just tearing her apart, as she held back those tears and her cheeks turned rosy pink. I can feel him telling her lies about her abilities as a mother, putting deceitful thoughts about her quality as a woman, and stealing the joy of being alive. Knowing she was not a Christian and also thinking “I could totally get fired for sharing my faith,” I didn’t care. I shared with her this lovely book called “Five Languages of Love” by Gary Chapman. I told her that maybe her and her family needs to find out what each other’s love languages are to find out how to best love each other. Of course, another believer has already planted the seed in her  and recommended the same book and she says, “I think I am having Deja vu. I’ve heard about this before from a coworker.” I was excited and I told her apparently Someone wants you to read it. She was so encouraged and I told her not to believe those lies, that unlike other mothers, she didn’t want to see her boys fail in life. 

Lastly, she told me, “Your pretty young but very mature and wise for your age. I’m starting to believe you were sent to me for a reason.” All I could do was smile and hold back those tears because just as the devil was trying destroy, kill and steal her integrity and honor as a mother, he was destroying, killing, and stealing every last ounce of joy, peace and love I had in my own life. But then I am reminded why I woke up that day, I am reminded that even if this was my last day, ALL that I have become, ALL that I have grown to be was to be chosen for that very moment to bring HOPE, that there is a GOD whose purposes are greater that what our eyes can ever expect to see and what our hearts can fathom.

Isaiah 8:6 “… And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace”. 

Have hope BELOVED, you’re alive for something greater. 

Job 5: 17 - 27

¹⁷ “ Behold, happy is the man whom God corrects;
      Therefore do not despise the chastening of the Almighty.

 ¹⁸ For He bruises, but He binds up;
      He wounds, but His hands make whole.

 ¹⁹ He shall deliver you in six troubles,
      Yes, in seven no evil shall touch you.

 ²⁰ In famine He shall redeem you from death,
      And in war from the power of the sword.

 ²¹ You shall be hidden from the scourge of the tongue,
      And you shall not be afraid of destruction when it comes.

 ²² You shall laugh at destruction and famine,
      And you shall not be afraid of the beasts of the earth.

 ²³ For you shall have a covenant with the stones of the field,
      And the beasts of the field shall be at peace with you.

 ²⁴ You shall know that your tent is in peace;
      You shall visit your dwelling and find nothing amiss.

 ²⁵ You shall also know that your descendants shall be many,
      And your offspring like the grass of the earth.

 ²⁶ You shall come to the grave at a full age,
      As a sheaf of grain ripens in its season.

 ²⁷ Behold, this we have searched out;
      It is true. 
      Hear it, and know for yourself.”

One of my resolutions for the year was to read the Bible everyday and today I read this (I’ve been trying to get through the book of Job but it’s taking a little lounger =) ) 

Even though Eliphaz, who was Job’s friend was rebuked for giving wrong advice, Eliphaz was definitely right in this one. 

NOTE: His wrong advice was that bad things happen to those who are in sin but Job wasn’t in sin. Eliphaz assumed that Job must have been in some really deep doo-doo to get what he deserved. 

I know this may sound weird but it says to be HAPPY when God corrects you, meaning He can allow bad things to happen in your life, allow your feelings to get hurt and even feel like your alone. All these forms of “love” are His way of correcting us and I LOVE LOVE LOVE that He does it so He can be the one to bind us up again and make us whole. He doesn’t want us to trust in our family and friends because believe it or not, they will disappoint you but God will be the constant in our lives that isn’t unchanging. 

Through these times where we are struggling and wrestling with God because we are in pain, know that He is doing it to only make us stronger, wiser, and WHOLE from all the junk that put holes in our hearts, souls and minds. 

Not only does He make us stronger, but He also has all these promises for us:

1. He redeems us, even from that moment of death

2. Laughing in the sight of disaster

3. Fear doesn’t phase us 

4. Peace in our homes

5. Our future children growing into the inheritance that God gave us and living at an old age 

I am encouraged to know that in the end of these valley’s, I’ll be able to laugh when disaster strikes and say “Yup, I got this because my Father says so” 

I said “I do” to the person I love the most. 

Hosea 2: 16 “ And it shall be, in that day,” 
                    Says the LORD, 
                  “ That you will call Me ‘My Husband,’
                    And no longer call Me ‘My Master,’

Finally came to revelation tonight as I was praying. My desire is to get to know God the way He wants me to and I felt my spirit yearning in this year of singleness for a husband but not an earthly husband, but the perfect Husband. Getting to that mindset where I know in my heart that my first and foremost important marriage is my marriage to Jesus. He wants to get to know me and for me to get to know Him. I realized tonight that He wants to hold me when I cry at night and when I go to bed, He wants to hold my hand when I feel alone doing errands, and that when I get angry at Him because I am frustrated that He will never run away but hold me closer and tell me “we’ll make, I promise”. 

Jesus is a Husband that no man will ever compare to and when we make the commitment to Him, why wouldn’t He not want us to know what He wants us to do? I mean isn’t that the whole purpose of knowing God’s will for our lives? As the head of the household and Jesus being that Head in OUR household, He wants me to know what He wants us to do. He is not a husband that is going to keep stuff from us and not let us know what the plan is. Just like any great earthly husband, he wants his family, especially his wife to know exactly what they are gonna do and when. However, it comes with trusting that person, knowing that person intimately, spending time in conversation and fellowship, in prayer. When we have those foundations in our “marriage” with Jesus, it will be so much easier to know exactly what He wants us to do. 

hmm.. Jan 1, 2012… the day I really said, “I do”.

Yahweh. Yeshua